Похоже, что теперь каждый январь, в моей жизни будет происходить пиздец. Мне лень расписывать заново, просто скопирую на случай, если вдруг кому станет интересно, почему я считаю, что виддинг умирает, и что я думаю по этому поводу.
Kill me please. It’s just too much. I thought that yesterday was something awful, but no. It is today. I couldn’t sleep because my stomach hurt like hell and I couldn’t breathe so I had to get up and just walk around the room to feel better. I have an exam tomorrow, I can’t even sit without any pain like I’m dying inside a little, so I just don’t know how I will survive. And now there is one person who tells me that we all, who made videos with Venom Snake as Big Boss (as we all thought that they’re the same person if someone is ‘confused’), should delete all these videos not to be dishonoured and harassed. He called one of my favourite vidders and hiw video ‘shit’. Shit. You know, I can say who is a piece of shit here. I’m so fucking tired, I’m angry, I just want to die because of all this. Why today. Why he couldn’t comment tomorrow, or maybe next week, or maybe month, or maybe never.
I also like that he said that if it is an art, it’s fine to be mistaken, but it it is a video, then we killed children, eat them and fucked their corpses. I don’t have anything against artets, you’re all amazing guys and I really appreciate your works but I’m just speechless at how vidders are treated in every country. So I fucking understand why many of really good talented vidders left vidding. I feel like I will quit too. It’s too much for me. I don’t feel safe doing something I like, so I think it’s… Fuck. Why. Why creating something is treated like we’re all miserable. I really like to see people’s improvements in art, in writing, I’m really happy about them, but if you start doing something good in vidding, there’s no one to see as there are not much people to appreciate it. You just work on your enthusiasm, without expecting any attention to your works. Just doing your job without accusing or getting into something dirty. And then every time there is just one fucking person who ruins it. Like I don’t seek for attention, really, I understand, that you have to spend more time watching a video than looking at and appreciating a good art, it’s fine, I don’t blame anyone, it’s just how human brain works, that’s all. I just don’t understand why anyone should act this way.
There are not really much vidders nowadays, and not many of them work like we used to work several years ago. Now people need more effects, texts, something flashy, something bright, colourful, and they get attention, while some, who still remember the old days, try to keep doing this work. Because we love it. What’s wrong in loving something, I just don’t understand. It’s not even something kinky, something which no one likes, it’s art, simple, but still art. I just don’t get it. Maybe I would do something to it, try to find people who think the same way and, well, I don’t know, try to get people to understand all of this. Like there is even a point to try.
Now there will be a little Russian, because I’m just too mad. “Ещё одна куча кала в общем информационном пространстве”. In short, it’s just this person’s words about the videos I mentioned earlier. Something like ‘a pile of shit in a information space’.
Dear gods, I’m so pissed off right now. I really feel like now I will really quit it. Maybe it’s just not worth it at all.
I’ll just add the video because of which I got all this hate and realized how miserable people are.
I also like that he said that if it is an art, it’s fine to be mistaken, but it it is a video, then we killed children, eat them and fucked their corpses. I don’t have anything against artets, you’re all amazing guys and I really appreciate your works but I’m just speechless at how vidders are treated in every country. So I fucking understand why many of really good talented vidders left vidding. I feel like I will quit too. It’s too much for me. I don’t feel safe doing something I like, so I think it’s… Fuck. Why. Why creating something is treated like we’re all miserable. I really like to see people’s improvements in art, in writing, I’m really happy about them, but if you start doing something good in vidding, there’s no one to see as there are not much people to appreciate it. You just work on your enthusiasm, without expecting any attention to your works. Just doing your job without accusing or getting into something dirty. And then every time there is just one fucking person who ruins it. Like I don’t seek for attention, really, I understand, that you have to spend more time watching a video than looking at and appreciating a good art, it’s fine, I don’t blame anyone, it’s just how human brain works, that’s all. I just don’t understand why anyone should act this way.
There are not really much vidders nowadays, and not many of them work like we used to work several years ago. Now people need more effects, texts, something flashy, something bright, colourful, and they get attention, while some, who still remember the old days, try to keep doing this work. Because we love it. What’s wrong in loving something, I just don’t understand. It’s not even something kinky, something which no one likes, it’s art, simple, but still art. I just don’t get it. Maybe I would do something to it, try to find people who think the same way and, well, I don’t know, try to get people to understand all of this. Like there is even a point to try.
Now there will be a little Russian, because I’m just too mad. “Ещё одна куча кала в общем информационном пространстве”. In short, it’s just this person’s words about the videos I mentioned earlier. Something like ‘a pile of shit in a information space’.
Dear gods, I’m so pissed off right now. I really feel like now I will really quit it. Maybe it’s just not worth it at all.
I’ll just add the video because of which I got all this hate and realized how miserable people are.